"Do you know what pain is? Pain is when you have to smile with a bleeding heart. Pain is when you have to hide your tears and not let anyone know that you are weak. Pain is when you create alternate stories to tell your friends because you do not want them to know where you really were. Pain is when you know the truth but you run away from it.
Pain is the most painful when you have lost all tears and all that you are left with is a wounded heart and a broken spirit. "
i dreamt of blood last night.
my blood.
the wound was raw, and open, and painful.
it hurts so bad that it doesn't feel any more.
i don't feel anymore.
i've been wearing black alot lately. but it's not like i'm in mourning.
it's not like i'm in mourning.
fuck, i have a right to feel everything that i feel; about anyone and anything. and i feel that this entire thing is fucking stupid.
ALRIGHT PEOPLE I SWEAR THAT THE NEXT POSTS WILL BE HAPPY ONES. BECAUSE GRACE CHEN BOUNCES STRAIGHT UP AND ABOUT. SHE DOESN'T STAY DOWN FOR TOO LONG. BECAUSE ITS A FUCKING WASTE OF EMOTION AND TIME. AND THIS POST IS UP ONLY BECAUSE I DON'T WANT TO DENY MY FEELINGS. BECAUSE DENYING YOUR FEELINGS IS ANOTHER FUCKING STUPID THING TO DO.
icy fingers playing piano on my skin - 7:15 PM
grace chen
14 october 86
ntu
communication studies
long bus-rides
thinking of the what-ifs
the occasional alcohol
music