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Tuesday, October 17, 2006

finally done with 102 presentation today.

frankly, it's quite nerve-wrecking. i've never really liked to speak in front of a group of people. i mean, close friends are fine. but not in front of a group of acquaintances (or even not, in some cases) where you have to make sure you say the right thing at the right time and not appear stupid.

it doesn't help that i take some time to arrange my thoughts and then, take even more time to direct them into coherent sentences. i really think i express myself much better through writing than speaking. in any case, it's strange that i see communication studies as my dream course but not the nitty gritty details like public speaking and class presentation that i have to go through - i only saw the journalism and publication aspect. still, practice makes perfect, i guess; and i can be damn sure there will be no lack of such practice (: what i stick to is this - act confident, and you will be confident. of course, i would actually need some solid knowledge to back that up. ha ha.

so with 102 done, that just leaves me with 102 written report, 111 presentation on thursday, 101 test on friday and 101 test next monday. it would be a miracle if i can finish everything and not get insane, what with being in hall and all.

sometimes i actually tinker with the idea of not staying in hall - as much as i totally loathe the travelling on the mrt, because i'm sure everybody knows the reason - you get too preoccupied with hall matters. and i don't even mean the informal gatherings and late-night suppers. it's the little aspects like deciding what to bring back home for the weekend and making sure you stock up on toiletries, cup noodles for that late night hunger pang, enough undergarment to get you through the week and blabla.

all these would be nonexistant if i stay at home with my mother bothering about all these logistics instead. and without all these concerns, i can then put my time to actually doing my work, and hanging out with old friends at tampines (damn, i so miss that place). right now, my weekends are just spent travelling from ntu to tampines and back, tying up loose ends over backlogged work, and catching up on sleep and maybe some tv. weekends are usually over in like five seconds.

still, it's just a rumination, i'll see how it goes after this one or two semester (read: my results). and besides, i heart my hall people loads! did i mention the two surprise parties they threw for me last weekend? oh i already did. heh. oh yeah, i'll blog about my birthday and upload pictures like soon, if i ever find the time. LOL.

so yeah, i guess it all boils down to self-discipline and all that jazz.

off to prepare my 111 presentation! (:

icy fingers playing piano on my skin - 5:32 PM