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Thursday, May 25, 2006

everybody's lik sayin we're only young once, it has become so cliched that i suppose the majority of us dont really grasp the meaning well enough to act upon it.

its lik, im gonna hit the big 20 this year. so age prolly doesnt account for much, but its lik, how to maximise this period of youth? how to use it to the fullest, as the cliche always go?

and im still debating over whether i shld quit my current job. ok to me, its a chore cuz i basically sit down, do nothing save for a few basic duties and earn the money. to some people thats lik a piece of heaven. a simple, no-brainer job, plus i get to use the computer, listen to music, even read up my final theory at work. but lik, that jus doesnt suit the way i am tailored, yeah?

i need to get up and move around la. this job is nice while it lasted, but too much of doing basically nothing everyday can get on one's nerves. today i had to clear up the coffee cups after the big bosses had their meeting, and as i placed every cup onto the tray, i was thinking - next time im gonna be the one attending meetings and gala events, meeting important clients and leading a purposeful life la.

its not that im super ambitious, but of cuz, who wants to lead a mundane life occupied with stuff that you cant even be bothered abt ? if im gonna work, i mights well make work enjoyable and do smthg that im passionate about. i wldnt mind havin to always b on the go all the time, or be awaken in the middle of the night for work. that is whats gonna complete me.

and right now, im jus really working to kill time and earn extra moolah so tell me WHY shld i b stuck in a no-brainer, dead-end job? i shld jus go out and explore and experience everything there is la.

and really i find that im not livin life to the fullest. i wanna b wild and crazy for once and b able to look back when im 40 and say i had my crazy days. i mean, yeah, sure you can b 40 and still b wild and crazy but its gonna b entirely different. adulthood comes laden with responsibilities and duties, unlike the carefree, spirited days of youth.

so yeah, heck. im gonna b quitting this job soon enough and b spontaneous and take life as it comes. ok mayb im cheatin alil, cuz i kinda hav a backup job LOL but whatever =))

icy fingers playing piano on my skin - 4:26 PM