a friend told me he once made a wish, that he wished he could be free from all emotions; to be void of all feelings.
i laughed. wouldn't being void of all emotions be tantamount to being a robot?
but now i wish. i can do away with everything that i am feeling right now.
another friend told me he wished life wasn't so complicated. i replied that if life wasn't, we would complain that it is boring shit.
but now i wish. all the complications would go away.
they say, if someone admits to being insane; he probably isn't really that insane. and if someone does not admit that he is crazy, he probably is quite crazy.
so if i say i am depressed right now, am i really depressed or not?
before anyone thinks otherwise, no, its got nothing to do with Vday at all. my Vday yesterday was spent quite nicely with three girlfriends (huisi,adelene and graceyu) and a guyfriend(eugene wu). initially i didnt exactly feel like going cuz i was pretty shagged after work but i went anyway and yeah, it was pretty good. exchanged gifts-i gave the three girls a stalk of pink rose each and i received earrings. thank you people for the nice day yesterday.
you know seriously, wtf. its as if every aspect of your life conspires to give you problems at the same fcuking time. i just need time la,i will recover soon enough; i always do.
icy fingers playing piano on my skin - 6:34 PM
grace chen
14 october 86
ntu
communication studies
long bus-rides
thinking of the what-ifs
the occasional alcohol
music