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Thursday, January 19, 2006

this past week has just been one helluva week of hedonistic enjoyment,man. its just orchard,bugis,tampines all the way,spending money like theres no tomorrow. hur. but you see (dont hate me when i say this) i have uber good guy friends who treat me,like,almost all da time. haha=) ey im no materialistic bimbotic bitch okay,they're willing to treat so why not? heh.

so lets make mention of these good friends,
eugene wu-treated me to pastamania and a drink at balcony last saturday.
pavel-movie "derailed". okay so technically he didnt exactly offer to treat me but by irritating me the entire time we were out with darren,this treat just only settles it.HA.
khai-for dinner today at pastamania.
and tomorrow, pinghong's gonna treat me to lunch at temasekpoly and flannery's gonna treat dinner at Marche.

to straighten the record,i did not whine and pester 'em to treat me aight. obviously the friendships i have with these guys are good enough to warrant me such treats. and i really am broke. so dont be jealous or bitch about me,go find your own good guy friend. HA. (okay i dontknow why im in sucha bitchy mood right now. pardon me.hah)

speaking about friends,i just have this longstanding issue i need to put it out there once and for all. you see,for me,i have different groups of friends i hang out with at different times. im sure many people are like that too. and the reason for all these different groups is because,generally,we each have a different side of us that comes out with interaction with different people.

like with A i'm more serious,we can have heart-felt chats like all da time; whereas for B we just lame around and joke most of da time. yeah?

and da thing is,all your good friends dont neccessarily need to be good friends with one another or even just friends. because of the different way you interact with each friend,when you lump 'em altogether,things are just gonna get awkward and weird and your friends will feel funny. well unless your friend is this great socialite who can click with just anybody,then,fine. but most people,i suppose,are like me. and before that,i need to correct this view people have of me. yeah,i may be sociable most of the time,like to talk and make friends,but that does not make me easy to click with.

conversely,i actually find it pretty weird when i'm with my good friend and her good friend. like, it just doesnt work that way for me.

and then this other friend i have,whom i dont really keep in contact with now; i dont understand the need for her to have all her good friends go out together and know each other and to click with each other.

my dear girl,i'm sorry to disappoint your idealistic view of friendship but not everybody can click with each other. the world doesnt work like that and its just gonna get really awkward. whats wrong with going out with your different groups of friends at different times and enjoying each other's company better this way?

maybe i'm just too comfortable with da ways things are to want to change and step out of my comfort zone. but i remember this quote i read somewhere before and i say it again,
better alone than feel miserable with bad company.
okay i cant remember da exact quote,but something like that la.hah.

been a long time since i wrote such a wordy entry,but you know what? i feel damn good. HA. and well,i'll put up pictures like,soon. haha.

icy fingers playing piano on my skin - 11:35 PM