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Friday, July 22, 2005

you know how some days it just feels like you got out from the wrong side of bed; you feel like crap the whole day, the slightest thing irritates the hell out of you, and you just lack the zest for life?

today is one of those days.

there was once for gp we were shown this documentary on genetics. how genetics affect a hell lot each and every person's personality; like how if person A is perpetually depressed - it's in his genes; or how person B seems to always be consuming Prozac because he is always oh-so-happy-it's also in his genes. glad to say i veer more towards the latter. but today the Prozac's gone from my bloodstream.

math lecture was agonizing. i was irritated like hell by the lecturer. it seems really trivial now, and it might be really trivial to other students who might not even give a damn; but it really grated on my nerves. my apologies to elissa and the girl beside me who had to listen to my griping.

i like to be happy; who doesn't. but being perpetually joyful is tiring. it takes a toll on you. there are moments where you just want to remove that smile from your face and breathe in the silence.

and when you do that, there's no need to conceal from others the fact that you're feeling like crap for that day. everyone has their days, and what's the big deal. if you're feeling like shite, just let it out. hiding just makes it worse.

anyway, the venue for prom has now been changed to regent's. you know, i don't mind it at all; wherever the venue, as long as majority of the year twos are there, and i've fun - running around in my dress taking pictures with friends and attempting to look pretty; is fine enough for me. i don't care what hotels have what stars; they can hold it in our school canteen for all i care; what i want is a splendid ending to wrap up the years in jc life - that's enough.

right now i just pray that there will be a prom come dec 2nd.

icy fingers playing piano on my skin - 1:03 PM