was at the airport again today. ahaha. i just love studying at the airport la. esp at BK. firstly, i love BK food, and secondly, i just think the environment there is damn conducive. thats if you dont get distracted by the food or talkative people. haha. was with shaun, adelene and someone i havent met since like six years ago. another pri sch classmate kenji and hes like amusing. shalnt say more. lols.
haix. ronald just told me on msn that people have been telling him stuff abt me. some stuff which i shalnt mention here. whywhywhy. its like, on one hand i dont wanna give a damn about others' comments and just wanna continue being myself; but on the other hand, those comments just get to me, and it hurts, you know?
i dontknow whether striking a balance is possible now. the reputation has already been built and you cant change that overnight. i admire people who can genuinely not give a damn about how others view them. but maybe thats not so admirable after all. haix dontknow la. am confused.
why are people just gossiping and talking abt you behind your backs? why cant they just live and let live? ok i know i myself am guilty of gossiping sometimes. but still, it hurts. you know, ive tried. tried to tone down, be more mellow and to try not to be what they're saying i am; but at the end of the day, i feel repressed. cos im trying to be someone im not.
i know you cant get everybody to like you. the only way to get people to shut their mouths up is to cease moving, cease talking - in other words, cease living. even then people will still talk. haha. ah wells.
its not the first time ive heard such stuff about myself la. good frens have been telling me about what others say. and as mentioned, i was depressed and hurt for alil' while; but i dont see how i am to change myself for people who barely know me. its true, its people who barely know you who talk crap about you the most. lols. and then my good frens tell me to just continue being myself if thats what makes me happy and they know the real me anyways =)
and yea, thx to you william for all that sound advice. haha. yea at the end of the day its all up to me, yea?
ookay. heard its the last day of the adidas sale at expo tmr. wanna get shoes!! =)
icy fingers playing piano on my skin - 3:28 PM
grace chen
14 october 86
ntu
communication studies
long bus-rides
thinking of the what-ifs
the occasional alcohol
music