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Wednesday, March 09, 2005

my lower body feels awkward. girls should get what i mean. and then by saying this, guys would also have understood. ah wells.

just last week, in the span of five days, not even a week; results to two major exams were released. and ive seen the differing emotions that have been displayed. the overwhelming joy, and the disappointment. most people did quite ok for the 'O's, which, having taken it myself, is not that important. not as important as the 'A's anyway.

not withstanding what the principal and the teachers have said, i think tpjc's standard has dropped quite a few notches. i dont really know how we did last year, but major tham told me privately the standard has dropped (all the while shaking his head).

of course i want to do well. i want to get distinction for my GP so it would at least help for communication studies. but my 'A' level subjects are the ones that are so stressing me out. im no good in math or econs or literature. but im starting to work now. being there to witness the release of the 'A's helped. i'm not that ambitious to want straight As (which, of course, is the best), but As and Bs would do just as well.

well, im motivated, also especially after talking with jared over the phone about a week ago. he seriously enlightened me, as always (: and i've decided, i dont want to be preoccupied with frivolous matters, with stuff that only matter now in the present. i want to be concerned with matters that will help in my future and i want to be serious in my studies. haha i sound so freakin determined. but i am. and maybe i know, once in awhile, i might slack abit; but i always want to remember to bounce up on track. really, starting now isnt considered too early, either.

digressing. i like walking on crisp grass than on hard, concrete pavement. i like the white clouds dotting the blue sky in the mid afternoon. i like the bright sun, but i dont like the heat. i dont mind spending an entire afternoon amidst nature. but i'll always come back to where the crowds are. its people who keep my adrenaline going.

i've realised, however moody i may be at any time; its not so much of quietude and silence that i need, but to be around and with people that will raise my spirits. somehow i draw energy from others; by talking to them and just being surrounded by people. i've also realised i like the canteen not for the food nor the breeze but for the people. talking and just saying hi to acquaintances can perk my day up entirely. im a people-person, but i guess i need to brush up on my interpersonal relationship skills. lols.

so anyway this saturday, i'm going for tpjc's party at club rouge! hehs. please come if you can. im not going so much for the music, or the drinks or the dancing; but as i said, i'm going for the..... you guessed it right-the people (:

damns. dont know whats wrong with my tagboard. haha.

i could go on forever blogging, especially after this near one-week hiatus; but i've lit presentation for antony & cleopatra tomorrow and i've better sleep soon else i get tramautised by miss kon again. lols.

icy fingers playing piano on my skin - 3:41 PM