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Thursday, March 24, 2005

am depressed.

ok maybe not like depressed depressed, but am in that sort of mood where you just lack zest, zeal and energy for life and school. where you just feel like slacking the whole day at home lying in bed, reading a book, snacking on crackers and not caring how much weight is gonna be put on.

or maybe reading some of the year ones' blogs and feeling their genuine sadness through the simplicity of their words have gotten to me. about how they're posted to other jcs, having to leave the friends made during the first three months and having to adapt to a whole new environment and having to make friends all over again.
coupled with the fact that some good friends i've made are posted to other jcs too. sigh.

and then the stress. its the A levels this year for godsake but im not doing anything. i am stressed, but im not doing anything about the stress im feeling and then i get even more stressed. but i know its not just me on the verge of a nervous breakdown. every year two student must be feeling the same.

every single year, every batch of junior college students in their second year get all stressed out and their insides tangled and knotted;just for that one big major exam that will quite determine their whole future, nevermind if they happen to be talented in music or sports because in singapore, a freakin' certificate is everything.

i like jc life. its nothing but a great whirl of fun, happenings and friends. but its the studies that suck. and the exams. freakin' A levels.

that aside, im putting myself up for disappointment and a whole lot of anxiety. huisi will so know what im getting at. itinkhessmartanditinkhesattractiveandhesreallysexy but
maybe i just am interested cos it shifts my attention from my very mundane and boring life, and im just looking for someone, something to spice it up. and he happened to be that refreshing someone.

ah shite.

spent the day with huisi and pris today at the airport. girls, i really appreciate so damn much the company =) and then later headed to bugis with huisi to look at shoes and bags but ended up being really tired and went home without a purchase.

will be heading to bugis really soon. really need a new bag and a new pair of shoes. and i want purple shoelaces. hehs.

im weird. so is everyone.

icy fingers playing piano on my skin - 1:13 PM