thistle;

Monday, January 31, 2005

i knoe just on saturdayy i was being in a good mood and aall.
but reallyy, feelings fade as fast as it comes.
right now i'm feeling like total crapshit.
short of being in complete depression.
everything just gets to me now and then.
and that reallyy sucks.
really felt and still am feeling like shiit righht now.
even my father is giving me crap. like, whats his problem.

and really shes fickle,
and she doesnt act her age,
and shes oversensitive,
and shes a bitch,
and shes temperamental,
and she cant freakin' control her emotions well,
and she cant stand the way she behaves sometimes.
and reallyy, she should just isolate herself away from everone else.
cos she knows there're people who cant freakin' stand her.

i am she.

and i just took a four hour nap just now and woke up at 11pm so tell me how the hell am i going to sleep now?

and it sucks to behave the way you do only to reflect and regret at the end of the day. like what freakin' help does that do to my life. i really need Him to change me righht noww.

icy fingers playing piano on my skin - 5:11 PM